Who I am


Short Version

My curiosity in relationships between people began at the age of nine, when I, my family, along with thousands of people, were displaced from our homeland due to war.

A sense of homelessness and a feeling of not belonging anywhere, pursued me for years to come. I felt disconnected, lost and focused on external success.

After a disappointing experience of working in a Fortune 500 company, I embarked on a journey of self-development. I felt drawn to works of Carl Rogers, Paulo Coelho, and Carl Jung. I engaged in dozens of transformational courses, such as “Calling In The One” and “Feminine Power”. I completed a Master’s program in Spiritual Psychology and got certified as a coach.

As of now, my journey isn’t complete and I don’t expect it to be. I enjoy moving into deeper and richer layers within myself, as I experience greater healing, understanding and belonging in my life. I see myself as a global citizen, rooted in Armenian lineage and influenced by the Soviet history/colonization.

Through speaking, coaching and writing, I help immigrants who feel lost to navigate the challenges of intimacy and belonging, so they can experience fulfilling lives and realize their fullest potentials.


Longer Version

At 9 years of age, I felt like I was swallowed by the underworld that I didn’t know how to navigate. A war spread through the lands of my birthplace, Azerbaijan, a homeland of my parents, grandparents and great parents.

The trauma of that experience made me feel disconnected from myself, my place in the world and community at large.

Life took me and my family to various homes, cities, and countries; from a university dorm room in Yerevan, Armenia to an apartment in a poor neighborhood in muggy Norfolk, Virginia.

As I was growing up and it was time for me choose what I would study in college, I leaned into my passion for travel. I thought that with a degree in Business I could travel the world for business.

I was admitted to University of Michigan (Ann Arbor) after living in the US for four years and not speaking fluent English when I arrived. Due to financial and practical reasons, I decided to go to a local private college that offered me a better scholarship. I graduated, debt free, with a dual degree. One of them a Bachelor of Science in Business Administration, magna cum laude, and another one in Spanish. 

I got hired by a Fortune 500 Corporation before graduation and after a few months on the job, I felt deeply disappointed. I knew that this wasn’t my destiny and I sensed that life held deeper potentials for me.

I shed many tears and I complained countless times to family and friends. One day I got tired of feeling so miserable.

Being an avid reader, I started to search for a way “out” through books. I discovered that I had an inner world and this opened up a a completely new world for me; one that truly fascinated me.

In libraries I stumbled upon works of Carl Rogers, Paulo Coelho, and Carl Jung. They were my three wise men whose writings planted seeds of healing, encouragement, and inspiration in my psyche.

My deep inquiry and self-reflections catalyzed a move across country from Michigan to California. I continued to follow my intuitive guidance and enrolled at a university in Los Angeles to study Spiritual Psychology. During a two year program I immersed myself in transformative experiences that later took me to explore further frontiers.

My passion for growth and development, lead me to study with Katherine Woodward Thomas and to eventually became a “Calling in ‘The One’” Coach. I started to dismantle the structures of patriarchy that I grew up inside of, that not only influenced me but also shaped my ancestral lineage.

I am participating in a Pocket Project that brought together 150 people from 39 countries. I am learning how to integrate intergenerational and collective trauma, in hopes of healing my refugee trauma, as well as the past of my ancestors who were impacted by the Armenian Genocide. I intend to one day facilitate collective trauma integration to prevent cycles of trauma and violence from seeping into the lives of future generations.


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Gayane writings have appeared in SivanaEast, LivingNow Magazine and Elephant Journal. She was also featured in OneInterview/ OneWorld podcast